I intended to make a short little spacehey blog about my new bike. I've never used a bike for transportation and i was very excited to become a cyclist. If you want to know, its a blue Trek 820 WSD that i got used for $210. I paid probably $400 total in equipment for my new ride.
I was with my mom checking out the bike route I would be taking to school, but not even 10 seconds into the ride I fell. There is an abandoned railroad that crosses my road in a slant, and my tires caught onto it. I hit straight onto the road and slid into the kudzu (there is no sidewalk on this road). The actual injury really did not hurt, but my ego took a critical hit. My mom has been my biggest detractor in this whole biking thing, so falling in front of her felt like proof of my foolishness. basically i felt like a huge failure and embarrasment. I thought everyone around me that saw me crash, including a city bus driver, felt the same about me. Like they were snickering and happy that I fell, because its what I get for being a cyclist.
I started freaking out and yelling at my mom after my fall because I expected her to be super angry and vindictive (and i was projecting). To my surprise, she didn't say anything like that and made sure I was okay before urging me to continue the route. She truly treated me like an adult, and it caught me off guard
After coming back from the route, I went to my girlfriends house to cry. My girlfriend has been commuting by ebike for the past year. She helped me realize how flawed my thinking was and I do feel better now. Im still scared to bike, but she promised to bike with me.
So my back to school season is going pretty shit. I usually love back to school time. I have a tradition of watching as many back to school videos as possible and overpreparing for the first day of class. But my back to school era this year has been a lot of struggling to walk, being unprepared in class, and being overly anxious. I was feeling really down this past week even though I should be very happy. And writing this out right now, I have been doing fun things with my friends. I really should be more grateful
On a less pessimistic note, I am super excited to be living in an apartment this year instead of the shoebox dorms. I have random roomates in a kind of ghetto apartment with ~ $500 rent, which is good for the area. However, the random roomates thing has been proven to be kind of weird. There is zero decoration in the common area right now. 2 of the people in this aparment have lived here for a year, but theres not a single piece of decor. They are using the entertainment stand as a countertop because there is so little counterspace. The microwave unit provided by the complex doesnt fit in the wall, so its just a weird arragnment right now. No one is communicating with each other to make the place more homey, and ive seriously been trying. I cant buy everything, but this is making me a little crazy.